Harus macam ni kew ?

Assalamualaikum w.b.t...
hye my dear blog...it's not so long since my last writing...
I am quite sleepy right now but i can't sleep till I'm done writing what I want...

Have you been in a condition where you keep repeating the same mistakes everyday?..
You don't,.right?...but I do..
It juz for this week where I always make the same mistake..
I am sad when they scold me harshly but I have to confront it with no doubt..
Abg rafiq always said "untung la dye marah drpd dye wat xtau je..lagi trok"

And it is absolutely true..no doubt anymore..
Sometimes I juz felt guilty to give the patient my wrong interpretation..
but luckily the science officer will check all the form first before releasing the test result..
And how should I can go through this semester with this behaviour?..

Everyday I keep scolding myself with "anisa kamo kenapa nie?"
I scare to see the next week b'coz of my mistakes..
I can't make a good deal with the fault that I already make..
But I try hardly to throw the ego things...It hurts me alots!!!

The conclusion is I think I had depression syndroms..
I always felt that I am the most worst students among them..
I am bad,.right?..yes,.I know that...I am pessimist..
Should things happened like this?..what did i have to do?..
Dear almighty Allah,..please give me a good guidance to face it..
I'm begging you...

p/s...1) mohon supaya minggu depan saya akan kembali tabah dan kuat semangat untuk menghadapi semua ini tanpa melakukan kesalahan-kesalahan macam budak-budak minggu lepas..

p/s...2) Saya seorang manusia yang memang sering melakukan kesalahan..saya bukan seorang nabi yang sememangnya dirahmati...tolong la bertimbang rasa dengan keadaan saya yang masih belajar ini wahai kamu semua sekalian...:)